To My Astor; with love

Dear Adeola,

It’s been four whole years you left this world to be with the Lord and even though I can’t say you miss anything down here, I can say I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

Even after four years, you are still the man in my dreams though that is the last place I would have wanted you to be. I have remained strong despite all the pain and I know you are extremely proud of the woman I have become.

Your Oluwadarasimi has grown into a beautiful young girl. She is your daughter through and through. Despite the fact that she is my split image she has your personality. Friendly, outgoing and definitely loves to be around people. She takes after you in a lot of ways. She started learning how to play chess and I have told her how much you love it too. It’s a pity I never learnt to play😂😂😂.

It’s been a very bumpy four years without you. Filled with many highs and many lows with God’s goodness been the constant in our lives. There are days that I feel I can’t go on without you but has God kept me and the strength of many has withheld me. There are days your daughter ask me where her daddy is and I am just really short of words. Some days I have the strength to explain but other days I don’t. She knows her dad is a legend and that you loved her so much. I have told her about how you couldn’t take your eyes off her when you held her for the first time.

I also really need to tell you that God has been faithful to your girls.

He has surrounded us with so much love and care.

He has provided for every need.

He has protected us.

I can go on and on.

I have also learnt to dream again. I hear your voice in my head reminding me that I am made for more. Even in death, you are still one of my number one motivator.

Most importantly, I hope when you look down, you see the woman I have become and still in the process of becoming and you are proud of me.

With so much Love,

YJ

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PS: I wrote this post last year but never got to publish it. It will be five years that my Astor transited tomorrow. Maybe I will write a post maybe not but it has been strong on my heart to start writing again.