Hello Everyone,
Today makes it seven years that Dee went to be with Lord. A lot of things have changed and I spent some time yesterday telling Darasimi how awesome her dad was.
What has not changed is how much I still miss him though without the accompanying pain.
I have a lot on my mind but somehow writing cannot give expression to it. I am however grateful to God for the past seven years and how much He has held us up. Maybe one day I will write a book about this journey and how it has built my faith in God. In the mean time,this yearly drop in post is my memorial of how God saved me from grief and death. I have come a long way from taking wailing breaks in the washroom and having episodes of breathlessness.
Another thing that has changed is my assurance of God’s love. It is a living reality for me, some scriptures literally feel like they were personally written to me and for me. I won’t even lie, I know God’s love and the most beautiful thing is that I get to experience it with my daughter. She is learning a father’s love in the most unique way and I love it for her.
Nowadays I really can’t remember the details of our everyday life together and it was initially scary though I am now learning that it is part of the healing journey. I still have some core memories etched in my brain, like when we first met, our very first kiss on our wedding day, when I passed my final medical school exams, holding our daughter in his hands for the first time etc. We shared such beautiful memories together and I am forever grateful to God that I experienced that kind of love with an extraordinary human being.
Why do I share this???
I know there is someone out there struggling with their grief asking “why me???”
I wish I had the answer but I don’t. What I know for sure is that God will never leave nor forsake you even in the deepest sorrow. He is a Father indeed and in need. All He needs from you is to trust Him with your pain.
Mine is a story of grace and redemption and I know God is just getting started.
I am forever grateful for these past seven years and I am looking forward to what lies ahead.
Love and revelational light,
YJ.
VOICE OF SANITY 